Dear Darling

Hey girlfriend!

2007-06-15T21:10:00.000-07:00

Went out with Aisyah today and baby's at chalet. haha. i miss my bestie! long time nvr see you dude. Ai shiteru! We went ard town as usual, laughing our ass off! and disturbing lame dudes! wakakakaa... ^5! they suck. evening went city hall and bought chippys. in the end went espl, hang out with bimo and friends. that boy is crazy. haha. oh wells. day went past by fast cause it was great great fun! most of the time went past by with our; camwhoring.

here's them!

Come Back

2007-06-06T18:16:00.000-07:00

ok..i'm back monkeys..
from my 2nights3days dance camp.haha..super tiring la..
but lucky..baby picked me up from camp.
i was missing him so ducking badly la.

Day1: we had bonding with all the dancers.
let me tell you, i was fuckg bored! had Latin Ballroom in the noon..wasn't that bad though.
was having blisters all over la..had movie night at 8:30pm. hahaha..

Day2:usual..but today learned Jazz.more to technical.. hahaha..was fun.
but during the night we had farewell night for sec4s and CLUBBING!!!
i was super pumping high and horny la and was missing baby and so i called him. hahaha..
den bla bla..lightsout.
Day3:slack..

and its over.. not bad. made lots of friends.. and baby wad waiting for me..weehhheeee.. i miss you bodohhh!!!!

Sunset Melody.

2007-06-01T23:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went out with My Sweet Baby.
went town to eat at far east 6th floor; fried kuey tiaw.
then head for taka and i was craving for Sushi as first but when reached i was like, "baby should i buy?" hahaha.. i was indecisive. baby just look away and with the 'dunno wad to say face'.!
hurr!
hahaha..
and i brought baby to the supermarket there and he was going fucking crazy, craving for DARK CHOCO yet AGIAN! hahahaha... and the brownes was making him blind. hahaha..
at last bought one small packet dark choco. he ask me to taste and my face was so cramp baby was laughing is ass off! *LOL* yuck laa..

and at last after i poo'ed, i decided to go down back to get the sushi. hahaha..
den we head for city hall.

there, we head for espl and went to the roof top.
And monkey..let me tell you this,
Baby is the most fucking ever most tummy aching laugh joker i've ever met!
We were telling lame jokes and this boy made me laugh the whole day and night.
Evening came and he decided to move move to the rear roof top where no one else is.
To watch the sunset.
Baby sand for me Our Song; My Guardian Angel.
Thanks hunny..so sweet la... even though he claims that his voice sucks but to me, its the most sweetest voice to my ear.
Than i sang for baby back and i cried as it came from the bottom of my heart.
It's for you.
heh..

And night came and met some friends so say hi.
ok wadever..let's continue.
We decided to take a walk away from the crowd where its jus us two and we sat down and shared the beautiful and romantic moment.
Enough said.
I love Helmy from the bottom of my heart. ♥

Rooted deep in my heart.

2007-05-31T17:25:00.000-07:00

pics. underconstruction.

Impossible.

2007-05-31T16:21:00.000-07:00

i'm sucking on the seaweed infront of the laptop desk and enjoying its taste.
*lol lame*

well yesterday was really a wrecked noght.
i'm not gonna type it here and say much as yesterday's feelings were hurtful.and well if there's people to enjoy the contents of this blog and than make it an interesting story.

today i went grocery shoppinh with mama and baby was still slipping.
he's at Jo's hse now.
"FUCK LAHHH!!! I MISS HIM CAN!"
*punch my own sweet damn face.*
wakakakakaka...

tomorro i got interview at modelling at meeting baby and spending time with him. I MISS YOU!

*day dream*

Early morning

2007-05-29T10:40:00.000-07:00

yawns..i'm still so sleepy and i'm hungry!
cravings for kfc's chicken that is! oh..and pancakes.. [if only someone bought me pancakes]
*droolssss...

and guess what! my mind was on electric violins the whole morning. I want!

Up from bed just to check the nesessary accounts. Sis was using till late night gosh! roarrrr...!
It's still like 10:35am now and baby is in school.
Going to meet him later, pick him up from school since i'm having my june hols.
*i miss you dearly man!*
hmmmm..we'll be meeting at 4 plus and going to EAT EAT EAT!
im hungry, sorry.

well i have to meet him today or tomorro and better yet; BOTH DAYS!
4th-6th june i will be having Dance Camp held in school.
Gosh! i'm gonna miss baby so much..*smooch*.

and now, myspace pics are under maintanance! *stomp*

oh ok..will just have to wait. let's go friendster ahead than.
im off.

Apology

2007-05-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night's feeling were all jumbled up.

Secret message to a dear friend:
I'm so sorry dear friend. So so trully sorry. I can accept those feelings but i'm trully sorry from the bottom of my heart that i cannot return the same feelings for you. I love you alot too cause you have really helped me in many ways but as friends. I'm sorry. I really appreciated you keeping it a secret from me for such a long time and i know it really hurts but all i can say that i really am sorry but you know that i'll always be here for you listen to those lame jokes and sad stories and i will always have your back. Friends Forever!

Ily

2007-05-28T19:44:00.000-07:00

wake up in the morn; 8:30am.

meeting baby at tampines for breakfast and to send him to school.
Met baby at 11am.

Was wierd at first after what happen the previous day but in my heart;
"GOSH BITCH! I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH! HUG ME WILL YOU!!! "
*evil laughs*

Went to ljs for breakfast cum lunch. Was talking bout my outing the previous night and baby was really jealous. *hugs* I told baby not to worry cause he's the only one in my heart and was trully sorry i reacted that harsh.
Den we walked pass the candy shop and baby brought me in.
omg! i want that candy man. super cute and nice la. *giggles*
Den,
"You hold this awhile syg."(pass me his plastic bag.)
Baby took the candy from the shelf and went to the cashier to pay up.
feeling:shocked, shy, happy
So sweet of you hunny to jus buy it randomly.

End up baby didnt go to school, settle stuffs.
After the long story talk, baby took me in his arms and i kissed him.
We just missed each other very much.

Baby sent me hm and *you rock, my "socks; NOT!"*

I love you, Suhelmy Bin Zuraini!

In the arms of another.

2007-05-27T03:22:00.000-07:00

Was supposed to meet hunny but than, he cancelled in last min. Baby was busy with work and left me hanging.
Feeling: Angry
I mean i understand you;re busy but you should have just told me what i can do instead of asking me how and telling me sorry and YET, didnt even try to call or msg me. Hanging.

End up went out with Biman and met his friends later on. Hanged out with them.
Sweet of Bimo to cheer me up.Thanks my dear friend for the friendly hugs and comforting
and giving me advice and telling me you will tc of me.Thanks. =)

During the night i was really missing baby yet checking my hp every min. Bimo told me not to worry.*hugs* Was total vexed and frustrated and i cant baby but then, the conversation did not turn out the way i expected and i hanged up and broke down. Yet again, bimo took me in his arms and hugged me tightly and wiped my tears.He told me to calm down telling me positive remarks on baby. Thanks bimo. He cheered me up and made me laugh. But some were fake smiles and laughers. I was missing baby badly but i was so disappointed. Baby promised me a romantic night tonight. Only me and him. But i guess it went to the hands of another.

At last i called baby and settled things out. Baby was really sorry but no matter what, ill always forgive you hunny. You're my everything. Ily.

ps: Bimo and me are jus bestfriends, he claimed.
And i love Suhelmy super core!
yet again, thanks bimo,
n sorry baby for misunderstandings. IIY.

Another

2007-05-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

currently jus finish reading: Da Vinci Code

Bookworm

2007-05-04T20:03:00.000-07:00

There is now no excuse for anyone to remain ignorant of the highest forms of human knowledge, art, and science.
Learning is cheap. Books are cheap. Public libraries are huge storehouses of neglected riches. All who know books know that they offer joys and riches unsurpassed. In hours of loneliness, they provide a multitude of friends, boon companions.

Hence only the reader of books realizes the vast and ancient brotherhood of man,
the oneness of the human family, the repetition of the same errors and crimes, good deeds and noble thoughts.

So, what sorts of books is the best to read? The answer is every sort.

But there is no need to neglect novels for histories. Just as there is a certain amount of fiction in the fact books, so there is a vast amount of truth in good fiction.

Above all, do not become a literary snob. Do not let the highbrows push you into thinking that to be solemn is more artistic than to be gay.

Currently just finish reading: Cracking Da Vinci’s CODE
Helping you separate;
FACT from FICTION.

now: 11:01am

Private or Party?

2007-04-28T21:42:00.000-07:00

yes indeed i was vexed with myself baby.
you know sometimes i just want to spent personal time with with you. ♥
i am a people-person but sometimes i just want to be alone with you;
where we can hang out together us two.
it frustrate me when i'm forced to go out with others instead of you.
i only want you! ilyhelmy.

well anyway, i had to stand up for myself. in a not obvious way.

yay! today is absolute FUN time with you baby.
sorry for making you walk mith me all around vivo.
window shopping is fun and i knew you wanted me to buy the G.
haha.. its cute right!
and i did.
haha. ^_^v

hope you liked the surprises i did for you in random.
it came from the bottom of my heart.

bought for baby at random, in a chocolate shop. He loves dark choco.

i had fun baby.
ilyhelmy.

HM♥

*smooch

Slashed right through the Heart.

2007-04-17T03:40:00.000-07:00

Dramatic headlines paint a picture of a world about us in
which contending disagreements, flaws, personalities and individual feelings dominates
the scene.

Fortunately, conflict in not the whole story; co-operation among us
has been steadily growing in scope and importance.
Co-operation belongs as much to the hard-headed realist as
to the warm-hearted idealist.
If politics can disrupt co-coperation, it is equally true thar habits of co-operation
in everyday affairs lay a moderating and restraining hand upon crisis.

yes, silence indeed when one, I turn my head away from that awful statement.
why compare the situation to that name.
you know i hate it.

i felt awful not talking.
i felt awful not holding your hand.
i felt awful when all i do is shook your hand and went up to the 12th story without even looking.
But i could'nt turn back.
My heart was slashed.

Did you know; i cry aloud while on my way up to the 12th.
I wanted to went back down but,
I did'nt want to hurt us more.
So i left it there to cool.
But it still hurts.
I'm hurt.
I'm sorry; I ♥ you.

now: 7:24pm

The secrets of unrevealed true identity.

2007-04-16T20:42:00.000-07:00

There is so much romance and beauty among youth.
Yet, there may be some who consciously try to 'hook' a wealthy/attractive man;
but I, for one will only marry a man for his nobility of character.

Mr. Right just does not exist; for you.
Everyone of us has his or her good qualities and weaknesses.
To expect too much from human nature
is Sheer folly.
To recognise one's own flaws and another,
is the beginning of maturity.
As an adolescence, I settle my life and difficulties, maturely.
But for you, how wasted and childish;
Acts of ruining and harming the home of your baby,
in about years to come; left homeless.
If you're confused and most probably clueless I might say, your womb I talking about.
Here's a poem for you;

A little learning is a dangerous thing!
Drink deep or taste not the Persien spring:
There shallow draughts intoxicate the brain,
And drinking largely sobers us again.

I am at situation whereby I totally am discusted by you. We are.
OK! Stop it with my good English already.
Let's start at primary, so you my filthy friend,
may understand our basic hatreds.
Here's what.

I am at situation whereby I dislike-core you.
Yes, I admit, You’re on my bitch list.
Let me have my say and also, on behalf of Dear Darling’s dudes and babes.
I dislike you, my friends dislike you, infact,
We don't like you!
Did you ever thought you're part of us? *violent laughs*
You've gat it wrong dear, we're just too nice to say, "GET LOST!!!"
Well I hope this becomes a penetration to you to please stop hanging around us.
Your presence is once more I repeat, not appreciated.
Kindly, walk away.
Bye.
By the way, my name is Mardhiah Aqilah.
What's yours*?*
*smiling serenely*

Double-dating

2007-04-16T05:53:00.001-07:00

yes. its a double-date.
me and baby, faz and nikita.
how sweet. ♥
the guys were so sweet.
they instore surpises for both of us and we were practically, clueless.
Thanks faz and aspecially, Suhelmy.
i had so much fun.
thanks for the movie; Sunrise.
and baby, smooch... haha. Noty boy.
I had fun.
*keyed in my book wonderful memories*

Pollution of the Environment

2007-04-12T07:56:00.001-07:00

its phenomenal to still have girls whom amongst us develops a sense of suicidal mindset for attention. i noe its not like u want to die. but i feel sorry for you, if its attention that you're seeking.(from guys mostly)

you've live much longer than i do and yet you're such a philistine.
don't you appreciate the arts of life or music?
well than you've got me with the growing of consternation for you.
you do listen to our genre don't you.
may i ask?
is that a sort of oblige; a duty you feel you have to fufill in order to hang around us than certainly, your presence is not appreciate.
i've tried to learned to like girls like you but, it just won't do,
you've haven had the chance to prove me wrong about your kind so take it slow girl; into knowing me and my friends.

sincerely, i don't hate you but its just a matter of fact that i dislike girls like yourself.
maybe you may think i'm such a dotty to have dislike you,
even though i do not know much of you and certainly i don't make an effort to, but its just the way u portray yourself looking and feeling negative of yourself but
yet you think you're the best and its most deteriorate went it come to you spaeking; please stop acting cute.
though you and (your close friends), would'nt like me to post this about you and it may sound harsh and too interpreting about you, well too bad; its legitimate as you have no rights and you are no object to violate the contents of my post.

smile widely
*grins*

now: 10:49 pm

If this affects you, none of my concerns.

2007-04-10T07:40:00.000-07:00

sometimes its jus a pity for a girl like you.
you actually say u people none of your concerns.
so why get bothered?

am i polluting your life or should i say, ermm limelight??
well, if i am, i guess; congrats to me.
i'm better than you if you think you're the best.
maybe to you and your dumb friends.
or maybe they feel you rock thier face because of your beauty.[maybe only in myspace]
in real; you're ain't gonna make it to my standard.

well then, thats a pity if u get beauty to have freinds who do stick around you.
when u get older, you're left with skin and bones.
cause to me; you've said enough to show you're inner beauty.
total discustment.
*vomits blood*

well, dont try to bitch no more bout me, cause you'll end me losing.
seroiusly, you may think you're in the winning line; but the fact is, it seems i'm affecting you and you'll just end up; eating yourself up.
the next min; you've vanished to thin air and i would'nt even think your friends will bother.
to them; oh..one less girl to fuck! too bad.
and maybe the next day or two, come girl, let's play.
the other is gone.

now:10:37pm

Something not so impervoius.

2007-04-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

Detention. selfish acts of some cretin girls i shall say.
going through hours of class detention because of girls, (like them).
feeling high and headstrong on singling her out?? how childish.
if power is what you girls aim for; fuck.
end.

A rainy day and tiring of cos and the beloved picks u up.
What more can you ask for? ♥
when r/ships are spent for only romance; would you be dumdfounded
when one ask, "Why do you love him?"
I won't.
I love having conversations with helmy like we do; all the time.
Even times when we pause with a few min of silence;
and when one will remark with an imbecile statement.
but yet, our day continued on with smiles and laughters.
like we did today.

and a few min later it continued with my frustrations.
yet again; band commitments.
i've said enough.
i don't speak much.

now: 10:10pm

A day at home.

2007-04-08T00:14:00.000-07:00

its a Sunday afternoon and i just woke up.
*yawns widely*i'm not going out today.
yesterday came home at 9pm.
baby sent me home.ouh, "thanks for lending me your black sweater."
so that i can cover me up and,
*sniff2 nod head*i love that scent of him.

woke up today and;
super tired and my stomach muscle ache. ugh..
i tink my abs are shaping and getting firmer.
thanks baby.
ok. thinking; im feeling sexual.[flashback]
*giggles*

special thanks to: Suhelmy Bin Zuraini
you made my day yesterday.
baby i enjoyed every second with you.
even the part; dropped a few bus stop away from the actual.
*roarrrrrrr*
i ♥ you.

oh and Zulu, *shhhhh.

after,a zombie couple walking at marina heading to ljs.
madee's tired and helmy's thighs are wobblie.
no energy to even sit up straight while eating.
lucky for the minahs and mats, we were both exhausted.
whats with the minah saying, "step siakkk!"
??
got damn it!, in my mind; "your guy was staring and me!"
mere losers.
baby was too worked out.
if not, i would'nt want to imagine wad he would have done.
*phew*
and while eating, baby noticed a guy was staring at me.
gosh, not another one. *ignores*
and which after, we headed to sent me home,
and then, baby headed straight for home.
zZz...

now: 3:10

Arts of killing.

2007-04-08T00:12:00.000-07:00

ok. i'm in school again on a saturday morning.
trying to finish off this art project; personal video.
its been a month plus and i'm still struggling.
trying to insert the music and voice over. gosh! fuck it.

ok. i'm waiting for time to past. baby will be waiting outside school to pick me up.
how sweet. ♥♥
yes, we'll be going out again. into our own happy land.
making love. ♥
*laughs*
yes yes. and i cant wait to have my meal.
hungry hungry!

Hello, you!

2007-04-06T14:39:00.000-07:00

yes, a new blog indeed and nope it stays.
i'm tired of writing so let just do typing.

Good Friday. simply bored.
baby is snoring; dreaming.
aisyah asked me out. lets go.
meet the dudes?
we miss them. ♥

there's jamming today but too bad i cant go.
damn it.
kinda fed up.
fuck my curfew.